Sometimes it's really nice to look at my old art. I often look at my current art and think, "OMG I am a horrible artist!" but if I compare it to where I WAS, it's a nice reminder that, in fact, I've come a long way. No, I'm not one of the top notch artists. I'm not "professional." But I am improving. I've seen that.
So today I want to stroke my ego a little bit and show you all where I've come from in my journey of art.
Here's the first pixel art I ever made of Izzy. Pretty darn bad... Her shading is horrible, her mouth is "anime" her figure is lame, and she's basically a Sonic recolor - No originality at all.
Here's the last pixel art I made of Izzy. MUCH nicer. Her form is great. Her colors are more defined. Her pose is original and interesting. Her shading (kinda) follows a light source. Her fur texture and clothing texture is so much better.
Here's my latest picture of Izzy, based off Omni's Izzy. Now she has proper proportions and you can see that my clothing actually looks good. Hands are HORRIBLE, but hands are difficult to do.
Soon I'm gonna work on coloring her digitally and you'll really see a difference here.
This is the earliest pixel art I have of Matt. I'm not going to bother pointing out the problems because they're pretty self evident.
This is my latest pixel art of Matt. One of the BIGGEST differences is a sense of DEPTH in this picture. There's actually a 3D affect going here, at least more so than the previous picture. That's a huge difference.
And for the final...
Matt, as he is now. Muscular definition, thick neck, distinct face, folds on the clothing... There's a lot here that I can get out of this.
The biggest point of this exercise is not to show how good I am. It's to show how good I wasn't. It's to show how I've changed and evolved. And that's only happened with hard work, determination, and a little luck.
So the next time you feel useless or weak in your creative endeavors, take a look at where you've come from. It's a humbling experience, and a good way to keep the motivation going!
Artistic Journeys
the struggles and successes in novel writing and pixel arting
Monday, April 22, 2013
Thursday, April 11, 2013
"Shipping" Continued - The Best Couple on TV
Today I got a message from David Tennant's News Blog saying that a popular entertainment magazine was holding a poll to determine the best TV couple of all time.
(You can keep up with the debate here, if you wish)
You probably all know my feelings on shipping already, so I really didn't think I wanted to get into this debate.
But it got me thinking. What makes The Doctor and Rose's relationship one of the "top two" in relationships?
I am proud to report that is it NOT because of the typical reasons for shipping. Most shippers ship couples because their ultimate goal is to get them in bed together. The couples on the shows have sloppy makeouts, make constant sex jokes, and generally fool around. They aren't in a very powerful or committed relationship, especially in most sitcoms, because the best way to attract an audience in a sitcom is with sex.
Tell me if you've seen this before.
Couple #1 are forced to work together for some unknown reason. They are forced to be partners in solving a crime, or maybe one is the boss of the other, or perhaps one person has some secret knowledge that the other needs in order to save the day.
We'll call them Bob and Judy.
So Bob and Judy absolutely HATE each other at first. Bob complains that he can complete the task on his own and doesn't need Judy's help. Judy, as well as Bob's boss, completely disagrees and tags along insisting that Bob needs the help.
Pandemonium ensues. Bob and Judy are nearly killed, caught, or hurt, and usually the near misses are Judy's fault for being "inexperienced."
Pandemonium calms. Bob and Judy have time to reflect. They are both slightly scared, but they are closer as a result.
Then they immediately go to bed and now they are SO TOTALLY in love. Cue shipper squeals.
This is the typical romance in most TV shows and movies. The couple starts out hating each other, or at least disliking each other, but as time moves on, they get closer, and sex finally seals the deal that yes, they are a couple.
Not so for The Doctor and Rose.
The Doctor and Rose symbolize what I wish ALL relationships were like. They start off disliking each other (more Rose, the "Judy" of the situation, than The Doctor) but as time goes on, they grow closer. But not in a romantic way. In a friendship way. They grow as friends first. And when the Doctor finally does admit that he loves Rose (and Rose him) they do NOT immediately go to bed. Quite the opposite. They grow even closer as friends. They have a few little kiss scenes, but there are not sloppy makeouts, no sex jokes, no inappropriate touching. Just pure and unconditional love.
Which makes their separation that much more tragic when they finally have to end it. Because their love is sweet, innocent, and pure. Their love is not is not based on physical feeling. It's based on love from the heart.
In fact, ALL relationships with the Doctor, whether romantic or just friendship, are pretty much the same way. They are based on love from the heart. Pure love. Love that comes as close to perfect as any human love can be.
Perhaps it's this break from the norm, this love that we all long for, that separates Doctor Who from most TV shows in the internet. Because he symbolizes the stuff we REALLY want out of a relationship, regardless of what society tells us. Relationships aren't built on sex. Relationships are built on love. And the Doctor is one of those few TV personalities that has it right.
(You can keep up with the debate here, if you wish)
You probably all know my feelings on shipping already, so I really didn't think I wanted to get into this debate.
But it got me thinking. What makes The Doctor and Rose's relationship one of the "top two" in relationships?
I am proud to report that is it NOT because of the typical reasons for shipping. Most shippers ship couples because their ultimate goal is to get them in bed together. The couples on the shows have sloppy makeouts, make constant sex jokes, and generally fool around. They aren't in a very powerful or committed relationship, especially in most sitcoms, because the best way to attract an audience in a sitcom is with sex.
Tell me if you've seen this before.
Couple #1 are forced to work together for some unknown reason. They are forced to be partners in solving a crime, or maybe one is the boss of the other, or perhaps one person has some secret knowledge that the other needs in order to save the day.
We'll call them Bob and Judy.
So Bob and Judy absolutely HATE each other at first. Bob complains that he can complete the task on his own and doesn't need Judy's help. Judy, as well as Bob's boss, completely disagrees and tags along insisting that Bob needs the help.
Pandemonium ensues. Bob and Judy are nearly killed, caught, or hurt, and usually the near misses are Judy's fault for being "inexperienced."
Pandemonium calms. Bob and Judy have time to reflect. They are both slightly scared, but they are closer as a result.
Then they immediately go to bed and now they are SO TOTALLY in love. Cue shipper squeals.
This is the typical romance in most TV shows and movies. The couple starts out hating each other, or at least disliking each other, but as time moves on, they get closer, and sex finally seals the deal that yes, they are a couple.
Not so for The Doctor and Rose.
The Doctor and Rose symbolize what I wish ALL relationships were like. They start off disliking each other (more Rose, the "Judy" of the situation, than The Doctor) but as time goes on, they grow closer. But not in a romantic way. In a friendship way. They grow as friends first. And when the Doctor finally does admit that he loves Rose (and Rose him) they do NOT immediately go to bed. Quite the opposite. They grow even closer as friends. They have a few little kiss scenes, but there are not sloppy makeouts, no sex jokes, no inappropriate touching. Just pure and unconditional love.
Which makes their separation that much more tragic when they finally have to end it. Because their love is sweet, innocent, and pure. Their love is not is not based on physical feeling. It's based on love from the heart.
In fact, ALL relationships with the Doctor, whether romantic or just friendship, are pretty much the same way. They are based on love from the heart. Pure love. Love that comes as close to perfect as any human love can be.
Perhaps it's this break from the norm, this love that we all long for, that separates Doctor Who from most TV shows in the internet. Because he symbolizes the stuff we REALLY want out of a relationship, regardless of what society tells us. Relationships aren't built on sex. Relationships are built on love. And the Doctor is one of those few TV personalities that has it right.
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
New Years Resolution CHECKUP
Hi all! Just a quick post today. A New Years resolution CHECKUP! Let's see how well I'm working on those resolutions thus far.
#1 Improve Figure Drawing Skills.
I really can't say that I've improved them much... Mainly because I haven't been drawing figures. I really need to just sit down and practice some quick thumbnails every now and then. Though I need a new sketchbook for that one.
#2 Redesign some key Zyearth characters.
Um... Yes. That hasn't happened yet. Check back this summer. >>
#3 Buy Prismacolor pencils and get back into drawing.
Honestly, I did buy some Prismacolors... and I forgot how difficult it was to work with them. I drew a few pictures with them, but I didn't feel like any of them were really worth posting, so for now, Prismacolors are on hold.
#4 Buy a tablet.
Done and done, and I am LOVING it. It makes me wonder how I ever got along without it. XD It's awesome.
#5 Begin learning backgrounds.
I am actually working toward this goal. I have two heavily Photoshopped pieces in the works right now and both of them have backgrounds. One is a very simple background, but the other is a full landscape. More on that as I move on with it.
#6 Finish final drafts of my first four novels.
That one is actually moving in the right direction. As a previous blog post mentioned, I actually have the first novel finished to the point where I don't want to touch it anymore until an editor looks at it. I'm very pleased with that. Originally I was going to use this month's Camp NaNoWriMo to rewrite the second novel and get started on the final draft for that one, but circumstances require that I work on my Master's thesis instead, so I'll be using August to tackle that one. In the meantime, I'll see what I can do to finish and edit Target of Eons, which isn't quite finished anyway and needs some reworking.
#7 Finish my Master's Thesis.
I'm actually working toward that a lot this month. I've already reread and reorganized my notes, novels, and sources, AND I've written several pages this week, as well as reorganized my outline. I'm really headed in the right direction.
#8 Finish rebuilding Zyearth world notes.
As far as I can tell, those are finished, at least for now. I've written and rewritten them so many times now that they're pretty ingrained in my head, and I don't find the need to add to them as much. So this one is DONE.
#9 Redo outlines for Drifter and Summoned.
Again, check back in summer. I should have more to say about this one then. >>
#10 The Obligatory Lose Weight...
That one... has not gone well. Joe and I are repledging that one this week.
#11 Finish our dish set.
While that's not COMPLETELY finished, it's darn close to being finished. We have four sets now. Just two more to go!
#12 Buy a new mattress.
That was another one put on hold. We both prayed a lot about it and decided that we'd get a new mattress next year and hold on to this one another year. We used the money to start our savings instead.
#13 Collect final household items.
We haven't actually done much with this, but I did put together a list of what we need and have. That's a good start. XD
#14 Build a savings fund.
After FINALLY getting my last name changed a few months ago, Joe and I got a joint account specifically for this reason. We currently have about 2000 saved up (whoo!) and we're adding more every paycheck. We hope to have at least double that before we move out.
And finally...
#15 Get our own place.
This one is still a bit up in the air. I am working to clean up my credit in the meantime, and Joe and I are planning to use some of our savings to get into a place if need be.
So that's it! It actually looks like I'm heading in the right direction for most of my resolutions.
How's your year going?
#1 Improve Figure Drawing Skills.
I really can't say that I've improved them much... Mainly because I haven't been drawing figures. I really need to just sit down and practice some quick thumbnails every now and then. Though I need a new sketchbook for that one.
#2 Redesign some key Zyearth characters.
Um... Yes. That hasn't happened yet. Check back this summer. >>
#3 Buy Prismacolor pencils and get back into drawing.
Honestly, I did buy some Prismacolors... and I forgot how difficult it was to work with them. I drew a few pictures with them, but I didn't feel like any of them were really worth posting, so for now, Prismacolors are on hold.
Done and done, and I am LOVING it. It makes me wonder how I ever got along without it. XD It's awesome.
#5 Begin learning backgrounds.
I am actually working toward this goal. I have two heavily Photoshopped pieces in the works right now and both of them have backgrounds. One is a very simple background, but the other is a full landscape. More on that as I move on with it.
#6 Finish final drafts of my first four novels.
That one is actually moving in the right direction. As a previous blog post mentioned, I actually have the first novel finished to the point where I don't want to touch it anymore until an editor looks at it. I'm very pleased with that. Originally I was going to use this month's Camp NaNoWriMo to rewrite the second novel and get started on the final draft for that one, but circumstances require that I work on my Master's thesis instead, so I'll be using August to tackle that one. In the meantime, I'll see what I can do to finish and edit Target of Eons, which isn't quite finished anyway and needs some reworking.
#7 Finish my Master's Thesis.
I'm actually working toward that a lot this month. I've already reread and reorganized my notes, novels, and sources, AND I've written several pages this week, as well as reorganized my outline. I'm really headed in the right direction.
As far as I can tell, those are finished, at least for now. I've written and rewritten them so many times now that they're pretty ingrained in my head, and I don't find the need to add to them as much. So this one is DONE.
#9 Redo outlines for Drifter and Summoned.
Again, check back in summer. I should have more to say about this one then. >>
#10 The Obligatory Lose Weight...
That one... has not gone well. Joe and I are repledging that one this week.
#11 Finish our dish set.
While that's not COMPLETELY finished, it's darn close to being finished. We have four sets now. Just two more to go!
#12 Buy a new mattress.
That was another one put on hold. We both prayed a lot about it and decided that we'd get a new mattress next year and hold on to this one another year. We used the money to start our savings instead.
#13 Collect final household items.
We haven't actually done much with this, but I did put together a list of what we need and have. That's a good start. XD
After FINALLY getting my last name changed a few months ago, Joe and I got a joint account specifically for this reason. We currently have about 2000 saved up (whoo!) and we're adding more every paycheck. We hope to have at least double that before we move out.
And finally...
#15 Get our own place.
This one is still a bit up in the air. I am working to clean up my credit in the meantime, and Joe and I are planning to use some of our savings to get into a place if need be.
So that's it! It actually looks like I'm heading in the right direction for most of my resolutions.
How's your year going?
Friday, April 5, 2013
Crossing Worlds
I live in two worlds.
The Academic World is my job. The Academic World likes to analyze and pick apart and dissect literature pieces. The see symbolism in the simplest sentence. They find meaning in the smallest bit of dialogue. They even invent theories in order to help them see these bits of meaning in literature.
Sometimes they analyze them to death.
The World of the Author is my hobby (or "jobby" as my mother in law calls it). The World of the Author likes to write. They like to make meaningful characters. They like to make powerful plots and delicious dialogue. They like to write, write, write, then edit, edit, edit.
Sometimes they edit them to death.
These worlds are only vaguely aware of each other. The Academic World knows that the author exists, somewhere in the depth of the books they analyze. The World of the Author knows the academic exists, and some even write their novels to please the academic over the Reader.
But somehow, as the worlds move in their little microcosms, they clash.
The Academic Wold likes to pretend it's full of really smart people, so they use big words and complex, made up theories to make their existence mean something. They don't like to be told their theories are incorrect, so when someone has the guts to point out an incorrect theory, the academic makes a new theory to fix the old one. Or sometimes they make a theory to make the other person's objection illegitimate.
This is especially common in the Modern Academic World. Theories like Deconstructivism (Breaking down novels into their component parts and ripping everything to oblivion.) Narratology (Taking popular words like "story" and changing it to "fabula" and basically trying to make the story into a math problem) or The Author is Dead (which suggests that the author's intentions in writing the story is completely unimportant to the reader's interpretation, which basically gives the reader the ability to analyze the novel however they want without thinking about what the author intended).
The World of the Author fought over these strange interpretations. They fought with the Academics. They fought with their publishers. They fought with themselves.
The fight with themselves created waring factions.
There are two types of novels.
The first type is the novel written for symbolism and metaphor first, and story second. It's the kind of novel written specifically for the academic. Novels that have an "agenda" if you will. They are trying to prove a point, make a statement, make you think, but rarely are they trying to tell a story. Such novels include:
- The Lord of the Flies
- The Great Gatsby
- Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep?
- Ulysses
- The Stranger
- Pretty much anything you were supposed to read in high school.
Typically, the novels are so heavy set in symbolism and metaphor that it's really hard to get into the story. Every new piece of symbolism makes you think OUTSIDE the story, and therefore it's impossible to stay IN the story. It draws you away from plot.
The second type of novel is written for story first and symbolism second. These are novels written specifically for readers. For people that love a good story. For those who read for character development, plot, good dialogue, and good character voice. It's for those who read to get lost in a new world. Such novels include:
- Jurassic Park
- Nancy Drew books
- Twilight (ugh)
- The Enchanted Forest Chronicles
- Pretty much anything you've read by your own choice and not by your English teacher's insistence.
The first set of books are the kind of books that English professors love to talk about, but don't always recognize as a part of "The Emperor is Naked" syndrome. (These are books that everyone says are great literature, but in reality, it's just great symbolism and only mediocre literature)
The second set of books is for those who just love to read and aren't looking for a real thought provoker. (Though one could argue that any of these books could have deeper meaning. The deeper meaning just doesn't take the place of the story).
So how do we stop these warring factions? How do we stop the hate between Academics and Authors? Symbolism books and Story books?
Magic books.
Some magic books cross both into the World of the Author and the Academic World and make everyone happy. These are usually books that start as Story First/Symbolism Second, but end up with major and important symbolism anyway. It's the kind of story where the symbolism doesn't take away from the story - it makes it BETTER. Such stories include:
- The Lord of the Rings
- The Chronicles of Narnia
- The Hunger Games
- Frankenstein
- Of Mice and Men
- Harry Potter
- Their Eyes were Watching God
- Pretty much anything your English teacher insisted you read, but you still read by your own choice because you LIKED it.
These are the novels of Crossing Worlds. These are the novels you aren't afraid to tell your author friends AND your academic friends that you read it. These are the novels where you can read it for fun one week and write a great academic paper about it the next week.
These are the novels that keep me safe in both worlds. So while the Academic World and the World of the Author don't always see eye to eye, they can agree that this is good literature.
These are the books that, as authors ourselves, we should strive for.
The Academic World is my job. The Academic World likes to analyze and pick apart and dissect literature pieces. The see symbolism in the simplest sentence. They find meaning in the smallest bit of dialogue. They even invent theories in order to help them see these bits of meaning in literature.
Sometimes they analyze them to death.
The World of the Author is my hobby (or "jobby" as my mother in law calls it). The World of the Author likes to write. They like to make meaningful characters. They like to make powerful plots and delicious dialogue. They like to write, write, write, then edit, edit, edit.
Sometimes they edit them to death.
These worlds are only vaguely aware of each other. The Academic World knows that the author exists, somewhere in the depth of the books they analyze. The World of the Author knows the academic exists, and some even write their novels to please the academic over the Reader.
But somehow, as the worlds move in their little microcosms, they clash.
The Academic Wold likes to pretend it's full of really smart people, so they use big words and complex, made up theories to make their existence mean something. They don't like to be told their theories are incorrect, so when someone has the guts to point out an incorrect theory, the academic makes a new theory to fix the old one. Or sometimes they make a theory to make the other person's objection illegitimate.
This is especially common in the Modern Academic World. Theories like Deconstructivism (Breaking down novels into their component parts and ripping everything to oblivion.) Narratology (Taking popular words like "story" and changing it to "fabula" and basically trying to make the story into a math problem) or The Author is Dead (which suggests that the author's intentions in writing the story is completely unimportant to the reader's interpretation, which basically gives the reader the ability to analyze the novel however they want without thinking about what the author intended).
The World of the Author fought over these strange interpretations. They fought with the Academics. They fought with their publishers. They fought with themselves.
The fight with themselves created waring factions.
There are two types of novels.
The first type is the novel written for symbolism and metaphor first, and story second. It's the kind of novel written specifically for the academic. Novels that have an "agenda" if you will. They are trying to prove a point, make a statement, make you think, but rarely are they trying to tell a story. Such novels include:
- The Lord of the Flies
- The Great Gatsby
- Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep?
- Ulysses
- The Stranger
- Pretty much anything you were supposed to read in high school.
Typically, the novels are so heavy set in symbolism and metaphor that it's really hard to get into the story. Every new piece of symbolism makes you think OUTSIDE the story, and therefore it's impossible to stay IN the story. It draws you away from plot.
The second type of novel is written for story first and symbolism second. These are novels written specifically for readers. For people that love a good story. For those who read for character development, plot, good dialogue, and good character voice. It's for those who read to get lost in a new world. Such novels include:
- Jurassic Park
- Nancy Drew books
- Twilight (ugh)
- The Enchanted Forest Chronicles
- Pretty much anything you've read by your own choice and not by your English teacher's insistence.
The first set of books are the kind of books that English professors love to talk about, but don't always recognize as a part of "The Emperor is Naked" syndrome. (These are books that everyone says are great literature, but in reality, it's just great symbolism and only mediocre literature)
The second set of books is for those who just love to read and aren't looking for a real thought provoker. (Though one could argue that any of these books could have deeper meaning. The deeper meaning just doesn't take the place of the story).
So how do we stop these warring factions? How do we stop the hate between Academics and Authors? Symbolism books and Story books?
Magic books.
Some magic books cross both into the World of the Author and the Academic World and make everyone happy. These are usually books that start as Story First/Symbolism Second, but end up with major and important symbolism anyway. It's the kind of story where the symbolism doesn't take away from the story - it makes it BETTER. Such stories include:
- The Lord of the Rings
- The Chronicles of Narnia
- The Hunger Games
- Frankenstein
- Of Mice and Men
- Harry Potter
- Their Eyes were Watching God
- Pretty much anything your English teacher insisted you read, but you still read by your own choice because you LIKED it.
These are the novels of Crossing Worlds. These are the novels you aren't afraid to tell your author friends AND your academic friends that you read it. These are the novels where you can read it for fun one week and write a great academic paper about it the next week.
These are the novels that keep me safe in both worlds. So while the Academic World and the World of the Author don't always see eye to eye, they can agree that this is good literature.
These are the books that, as authors ourselves, we should strive for.
Thursday, March 28, 2013
FINALLY
Finally. I'm done. I'm finished. I ACTUALLY MADE IT.
Two and half years, Eight drafts, fifty-two chapters, 313 pages, 77,390 words later, I am finally finished with what I think is the best draft possible of the first novel in the Zyearth Chronicles.
The Stolen Guardian.
It was a huge, long, daunting task, and one that's not likely finished yet.
I'm going to ask anyone who's willing to help out to read my novel and point out any nitpicky things. Hopefully there's not much. Hopefully I'm at a point where I can declare this novel "done" and move on to other things.
Speaking of other things, Camp NaNoWriMo is right around the corner! LITERALLY. Starting April First, on a Monday, the first session of camp will get underway.
I originally intended that month to be dedicated to rewriting "Drifter" which needs a rethink, a reoutline, and a bad rewrite. But circumstances have changed, so I'm dedicating my camp to writing my Master's thesis instead. Hopefully I can work through this quickly and get exactly what I need done with it.
In the meantime, I've made progress with at least two of my long term goals for the New Year. I'm slowly improving my art skills and I've gotten progress on my novels. Now it'll be progress on my thesis.
This year is really shaping up to be something special. Here's hoping it stays that way!
Two and half years, Eight drafts, fifty-two chapters, 313 pages, 77,390 words later, I am finally finished with what I think is the best draft possible of the first novel in the Zyearth Chronicles.
The Stolen Guardian.
It was a huge, long, daunting task, and one that's not likely finished yet.
I'm going to ask anyone who's willing to help out to read my novel and point out any nitpicky things. Hopefully there's not much. Hopefully I'm at a point where I can declare this novel "done" and move on to other things.
Speaking of other things, Camp NaNoWriMo is right around the corner! LITERALLY. Starting April First, on a Monday, the first session of camp will get underway.
I originally intended that month to be dedicated to rewriting "Drifter" which needs a rethink, a reoutline, and a bad rewrite. But circumstances have changed, so I'm dedicating my camp to writing my Master's thesis instead. Hopefully I can work through this quickly and get exactly what I need done with it.
In the meantime, I've made progress with at least two of my long term goals for the New Year. I'm slowly improving my art skills and I've gotten progress on my novels. Now it'll be progress on my thesis.
This year is really shaping up to be something special. Here's hoping it stays that way!
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